I don’t understand. Why can’t I just like it :( I promised myself I would eat oatmeal every day. because it’s so healthy and filling. and I made it. and now i’m just sitting here. staring at it. wishing it would go away or turn into chocolate cake or something. it looks good. and it smells good. so why can’t it taste good? WHY
I stepped on the scale today after months of hardly working out and eating semi healthy. I fully expected to have remained the same weight that I had been. but no. I’m finally under 200 pounds. for the first time since my first year of high school. I’m in my second year of college now. I had no idea it would feel that good to see a 1 before my weight. and I hereby vow that I will never again in my life see a 2 before my weight ever again.
Ever since school has started back up I’ve been completely slacking on working out; and eating unhealthy things again. I have classes all day, so I go a really long time without eating, then I just grab some quick thing and shovel it down before getting work done. I’ve been living on coffee; and getting almost no sleep. I haven’t had any time to go to the gym, or go on a run. and I have absolutely no motivation to start up again. It’s going to feel like i’m starting all over. I’ve gained a pound in the last two weeks. asdfghjkl. I’m sick. I feel like complaining :c
I know that I need to get back to my healthy life. so i’m going on a run tonight when I get finished with the yardwork. and I guess i’ll have to figure out a way to still eat healthy while being stuck at university all day.
but on another note; i’m really sorry guys. I know that a lot of you look to me for advice and such, and I’ve been giving terrible advice. so I’m honestly sorry. I’ll be back to the same old me soon! <3 Love you guys.
So, the lady that I babysit for left me money to order the kiddos pizza. And I ordered it, and didnt eat any! I opened the box and went to take a piece… Then shook my head and closed it up. That was so hard, but I feel so good. I’m just gonna make myself a nice piece of salmon when I get home :) no slip ups today, and it’s my very first day back on track!
I have no clue what she’s talking about but she just keeps going and going.
so, My dad lives on about 3 acres of land. and every summer he has me come over and cut the grass once a week. well, before I was so out of shape and just… unhealthy that I would have to stop every 3 minutes to get a drink of water and rest. and it eventually got to the point where toward the middle or end of summer, he would have to hire a lawn service because I just couldn’t do it. WELL. this year is the first summer that I did the entire thing, for the entire summer. I didn’t even have to stop and take breaks at all. I do the whole thing, without stopping. and the summer is now almost over. It’s so weird. I don’t even get out of breath, and sometimes after I finish the lawn I go on a run as well! definitely a victory for me. before this year, I would have never thought that I could do that. <3333